How’s everybody? I’m ok; there is nothing spectacular happening in my life. The temporary job assignment that I’m on ends in mid March, and that’s just around the corner, so I’m intensifying my job search. Life chugs on, with me scrambling to keep up. My days are pretty much routine. I get up, go to work, come home, cook, and get ready to do it all again. Same old same old, things change but really they basically remain the same. Sometimes though, life throws you a little somethin somethin to shake you up. Last night as I slept, I had the most comforting dream.
I dream on a regular basis, it seems like my mind races all the time. Last night it was working overtime. The dream that came to me only lasted a few moments. It appeared that I was back on my old college campus, and I happened to bump into an old friend. Initially I hardly recognized him. I had nodded to him and for some reason begun to turn to walk away. He said my name aloud and we looked into each other’s eyes. In that moment we recognized each other. As he said my name he pulled me to him in a warm embrace. His lips met mine and we melted into each other. He squeezed me tighter and tighter as we kissed. In my mind I saw us embraced, woman to man, friend to friend. It seemed that the embrace lasted for a while. When we parted he hurried as though he was late for something. As he trotted away he turned and gave me an impish grin. I awakened with a comfortable warm feeling (no, it wasn’t gas, or anything else that you might be thinking.) I laid there in the dark savoring the feeling, reliving the kiss and embrace in my mind. The feeling of peace that enveloped me was wonderful. For a few moments I felt that all was right with the world. I was calm and emotionally satiated, for a few moments…Then I began to wonder.
I have thought about my old friend on numerous occasions throughout the years. As a matter of fact, I’ve thought of him often over the last year. I’ve even seen a picture of him and his wife visiting a mutual friend. It’s funny, back during the time when we were friends there was no physical contact between us. We laughed a lot, shared a lot. It was comfortable. He was a shoulder to lean on, a friend who interrupted my tears with laughter. I miss the friendship. We were friends, who lost touch. After we left school, our paths crossed only once or twice. So it has been years since we’ve last spoken to each other. He is happily married, and I…well…..I am married. I would love to reconnect with him. We just seemed to hit it off. He was a good friend; and I’d just like to talk with him, and catch up.
It’s strange, when he turned and grinned at me in the dream; it was as if he knew that I needed that moment in time. Before, he had always known the right things to say to make me laugh, and to make me feel better. He’s doing it again, taking care of me, even in my dreams. Wow, I am amazed at what the mind does to compensate for the gaps in reality. For a long time I’ve felt unappreciated, emotionally ignored. So my subconscious kicked in to smooth things out. In my life, as I can recall, this has been only the second time that I’ve had such a dream. It is one that I will likely never forget. It just had such a real feel to me. I don’t think that I’m one who is able to think a dream into existence. However, if I could, I’d conjure up my friend tonight, and we’d sit down and chat. However, that will not be the case. I hope that someday we can reconnect, but it may not happen. Perhaps he will always just exist as the friend who gave me a moment of happiness, of comfort, if only in my dreams….
Hope you don’t mind, I just needed to share with you. I woke up this morning feeling a little confused, emotionally reaching for something that wasn’t real. It was good while it lasted. Funny how a warm hug from a special friend can raise one’s spirits. Oh and btw, the person that shared my dream with me is not on facebook, just in case you’re trying to figure out my old friend’s identity. Until next time, pleasant dreams.
